contrary or perhaps aptly described by the title of this entry, shit's gonna get serious. i haven't really used this journal as an escape or for useful things in years; i also quit writing in my handwritten journal, which perhaps is the bigger problem. at any rate, it's been a long while since i just got shit out. so here it goes. ( i cried because: )

it's been a weekend of reflection. while i've done a lot in the past couple months to move on, something wasn't quite clicking. i was still holding on to little things. and as much as they were only little things, i think they were holding me back in a big way. it all hit me when i tried explaining why i would ever bluff such a crappy hand. the ( Read more... )

yet again things in jersey got messed up. another boat broke, so we didn't get any sampling done. we didn't even get to start, so essentially, my whole trip down there was a waste of time. great. i'm a little bummed because i think it would have been good to get some sediment experience under my belt, but that's not happening, so whatever. i ( Read more... )

there are some things i learned today ( Read more... )

i went to tonight's game. saw schilling's 200th win. it was definitely awesome, despite it being tampa. perfect weather for a baseball game. willie harris scared me a bit. can't wait for coco to return. i was so excited about him in spring training ( Read more... )

why can't it just be right, for once? why can't it feel real again ( Read more... )

last night was odd. wonderful and disastrous all at the same time ( Read more... )

tonight was an odd night. there is no other way to describe it ( Read more... )

i spoke with tia tonight. i hadn't really talked to her in way too long. i feel like i never have anything new to say to her. yes i have a crush on such and such a boy. yes i've been travelling. yes my sister is still crazy. but it's always nice to hear what's going on in her life ( Read more... )

i ran into this kid from my gw class of last semester today. i was very surprised to see him and just today found myself wishing that i would have the chance to run into him again since we have no classes together. anyway, of course nothing really comes of it. we talked for a bit of time, but not about anything in particular. he notices that i dyed ( Read more... )